I welcomed the fist minutes of my 21st birthday inside a jeepney, with the mixed and mismatched voices of my friends singing "Happy Birthday" and chanting "sayo ang entrance". Buti na lang wala kong pera non. haha. And then, the guys were chanting, "Sayo ang babae, kami ang dadale". Balahura talaga ni Ben! Sabay banat pa nila ng ultimate, "pa-gerger ka naman!" wahaha. pero thanks guys. touched ako!

back in the office. Long weekend's been long gone and over. BUT, the fun and dancing under the sun feelings still linger. haha. this weekend had been one of my most productive (as in helping in the store productive) and fun (as in partying, drinking, and videoke-ing) weekend since i've started working. Anyway, here's a chronicle of the events that transpired. It's a long post. hehe.

Friday evening. Aia's birthday celeb. I met up with Luv and Jaemie in KFC at the RCBC Plaza. By some stroke of faith, I saw my brother with his officemates and are also eating at KFC. What a coincidence huh? Anyway, Dwigt and Tin soon arrived. We ate and chatted, laughed like we weren't in a public place (read: ang mga kwentuhan, bargasan, at tawanang sa LB na nakasanayan). After the aparently long wait for Apple, we headed off to Aia's place at Pandacan. My gawd! It's like so far! At gudlak naman kay Dwight, ang guide na nangiiwan! haha. anyway, we saw Aia's mom again. Been a long time. Then we partied with her housemates and some friends from LB. Videoke galore! I went out to talk on the phone for a while and when I came back, the alcoholic aroma of the smashed Gran Matador greeted my nose. We had to buy drinks again, this time, it's GSM, Iced Tea, and Sprite. Mix courtesy of me. hehe. Well, they said they didn't get drunk but who cares? We did party the night away anyway! hehe.

Saturday. F*ck it. We all went to bed at around 2am. And i woke up by 5am. Is there any fairness left in this world? haha. I needed to go back to Boni to get my stuff and then head home to Tarlac. The travel sucks. hehe. I only slept for about 2hrs coz it's so uncomfortable. I dunno whta's wrong with that bus. Anyway, I got home at about 11am. And then, I had to go and tend the store from 12nn and close at 6pm. Good thing there's a TV in there. hehe. and in fairness, pinagawa na ni mama na parang office yung sa may cashier part. Tas naka-aircon at one-way mirror. Para siyang si Big Brother. haha. Anyway, twas kind of a lousy day. hehe. And I slept early.

Sunday. I was forced to wake up by 9am. sino ang gumigising ng 9am kapag weekends?! Grrr. Kasi naman, Mama and Gary is set to go to MOA to meet Tita Au and Tita Leah. Gary will be staying in Laguna for about three weeks. And so, bantay na naman ako, as alaways. Buti na lang, by 2 or 3pm, my friend Meme went by the store and extended an invitation for the wedding of the sister of our friend Maan. So, after I closed the store at 530, I freshened up, waited for my father's permission (yes, nagpapaalam ako!!!) and set off to meet my friends at Meme's. Wala na ang newlyweds sa reception. And it's not a big handaan either. It's a simple and traditional province kasalan, with the crepe papers shaped like flowers and twisted as it stretches from an end to another. So colorful! With the handweaved palm decorations.  Anyway, we ate. And 'videoked' the night away. Of course, there's also drinking. hehe. My first time to drink red horse again (umiinom po ako talaga. hindi po ako nagmamalinis. haha). The next round is a mixture of gin, 'cuatro cantos' to be specifc, and I think orange juice. baliktad ang trip nila. dapat nauna ang hard eh! Anyway, I went home at 11pm, thinking that I'm about to be dead coz my father is probably wondering why I am not yet home. But, alas! Wala pa rin xa sa bahay. hehe. Kaya ayun. My ass is saved!

Monday. "6:15 na. 6:30 ka di ba? Bumangon ka na dyan." Yan ang sbai ni Papa sakin kahapon. Eh pag xa ang nagsasalita, napapabalikwas talaga ako. Ai grabe. Ayun. puyat puyatan ako. tas nagbukas ako ng maaga. Hai. Mama arrived around 9am. I got off the store by 11am coz there are a lot of customers. I don't know why coz it's a normal market day naman. Anyway, me and my friends are celebrating Meme's and Wilson's birthday swimming somewhere. hehe. We all met up at Meme's house, where most of my friends already are waiting for the other people to arrive. When the party was complete, we headed and searched for a resort. After three choices, we ended on a relatively small one. But it's a nice place anyway. Medyo nag-alangan lang kami kasi may sign na sabi eh: "Bawal ang anumang ALAK o nakalalasing na inumin." Eh kamusta naman ang dalang wine, whisky, at fundador?! Buti na lang at kalahi nila Meme ang may-ari at we are nice-looking and peace-loving people (weh?! di nga?! haha) kaya napapayag namin xa. Itago na lang daw namin pag umiinom kami. hehe. Kaya ayun. Lunch galore na. Adobong manok at inihaw na tilapia. Delicious! haha. Swimming at kwentuhan galore maghapon. Boy-sighting ang mga vekluh! Occassional inom-inom na palihim. and a whole lot more. hehe. I have a tan line na! Wahaha. May i-i-itim pa pala ako. haha. We did some pictorial chorva na rin. (Just dunno when wll Cindy upload it. hmpft!) And as the afternoon sun sets and the twilight has taken over and with lesser people around, we played songs from Meme's phone and partied. We danced over the bridge, at the platform before the slides, in the pool. Everywhere! Ang lalandi ng mga bakla! Nahawa tuloy kami! (Chos!!!) haha. Pero masaya talaga xa! And, sa loob ng shower room while making banlaw, unang beses, as in the very first time, na nakakita ako ng live and actual na hubad na katawan ng isang babae!!! (Di ko sasabihin kung sino. haha) Shocking! Kasi naman noh, nakapanty at bra oo pero ang hubo't hubad, nevah! haha. Ayun. Uwian na. Pag-uwi namin, naglakad kami. Tas wala lang. Ang sweet kasi. Yung isang gayla na kasama namin, kasama niya bf nia. tas holding hands sila while walking. Nakakatouch lang. *sigh* tas yun. Hiwa-hiwalay na ulit. Without knowing kung kelan ulit ang next na happening. huhu. Twas really fun though. One helluva weekend!

SIDENOTES:
Tuesday morning: Traveling sucks! I mean, 330 ako gumising. Para maaga makabalik Manila. Kasabay ko si Jacq sa jeep pabalik ng Tarlac. Kaso we parted na sa station kasi di niya keri ang lamig ng aircon bus. Sabi niya: "Mamamatay ako dyan girl!" kaya ayun. She's working na sa Dau eh. Same company as Mommy Daisy. Anyway, kaasar talaga ang traffic. From orth Edsa to Boni, one hour na. Grrr. Tas naligo pa ko at kumain kaya eo. I'm sooooo late. tas ang una ko pang inatupag ay magblog. haha. BAD EMPLOYEE! Anyway, let's all have a great week ahead!

This is me. Welcome to my world.

Mula sa blog entry ni photboi, THE official soc tanggero. hehe

klase ng MANGINGINOM:

PASSIVE - mahilig magpass ng tagay

THE HIKER - palipat-lipat ng pwesto. iwas tagay.

THE MARTYR - nagpapanggap na kaya pa kahit senglot na.

KID SENTI - dami naaalala pag nakainom na.

THE FUGITIVE - umuuwi ng walang paalam. naglalaho na parang bula.

KUNG FU - KUNG FUmulutan, malupet. tirador ng pulutan. ginagawang picnic.

THE CHOSEN ONE - official runner sa tindahan. bili alak, yosi, yelo at pulutan

DEADMAN DRINKER - unang nalalasing.

DRAWING - nagyayaya di naman tinutuloy.

TANGGERO - [modified] masarap na kakwentuhan at pinakamagaling magpainom.

oh ano??? inom tayo?

TAGAY SA TAGUMPAY!

Start:	Feb 11, '08
End:	Feb 15, '08
Location:	Freedom Park, UPLB

February 11
100+ UPdate (Unending Persistence in Defying State Abandonment of Education)

February 12
UPrising Cost of Education

February 13
Juan dela Cruz and the Deathly HaLAWS: 9372-464-1017

February 14
Of Struggles and Love AfFAIR

February 15
En Route: The FAIRwell March

First off, I don't really rant in blogs. I don't vent out my anger and my frustrations over the internet. Emotions like happiness or sadness and the likes, oo. But anger? nah. or maybe sometimes. but never the scorching anger kind of type. So, if you are reading this, or intend to read it, bear with me. *deep breaths muna. baka ako ma-hypertesion*

Now. I am not angry. I am frustrated. Like very frustrated. Minutes ago, I was so in the mood. I attended a press conference (at Annabel's restaurant) where I ate a lot (like eat-all-you-can-no-one-will-stop-you kind), got a free "My Child Matters" baller and T-shirt, and learned a lot about childhood cancer here in the Philippines and why Filipinos should be aware of it. I even got the chance to finish watching "No Reservations" and halfway of "Ratatouille" during the back and forth trips. I was so much in the mood that I even started writing the news about the press conference. I planned to post that article here so that other poeple will know about cancer in children. But no. I got distracted. So much so that I can't focus and I can't think of what to write. (I'll still post the article, just not today coz I know I can't finish it with this state I am in. Maybe by Monday.)

I'm just so frustrated. So f*****g frustrated! DAMN! I don't know what really frustrates me though. Is it the prospect of not going somewhere over the weekend? Not spending good times? Not seeing people? Or is it because other disturbing thoughts at the back of my mind are finally finding the chance to come out in the open and make me think about them. *I pity my keyboard*

Come to think of it, I don't have the right to rant. I am in a far better situation than other people. And yet, I can't help to not to. I know, there are a lot of factors to consider and all. It's just taht I really wanted this weekend to happen like it should. I really wanted this break. I want it. I need it. Badly. And it's hard. Thinking that you have set aside all other things just to make way for it. That you have been excited since you were told. That you have been thinking and imagining about it so much that you want the work days to end. That you have been talking about it. That you are so f*****g excited that you just couldn't hide it. That you're energy and happiness level is reaching it's maximun only to dive to its deepest yet. And yes, there remains that thought that maybe it'll push through. That maybe it will happen. That maybe, people will realize how one could possibly feel. That after breaking the news and spreading another one, it will be okay again.

But no. It doesn't work that way. It doesn't just become okay. You don't easily get back from down under to sky-high. It ain't that easy. You will go. Because you wanted to. You'll still be there. But it wouldn't be the same. You don't have the adrenalin rush anymore. You're not pumped-up and loaded. Instead, you're upset. Frustrated. Disappointed. Not just because of other people. Because of yourself. Because you let your excitement and expectations get you. And maybe, that is what really frustrates me.

This is me. Welcome to my world.

Just got back from an interview with an ER physician in Medical City. Still not wanting to prioritize and DO my job (it's an excuse called the writer's block), I found this survey courtesy of my batchie eips. Interesting way to reminisce.

two years ago as of today…                        

How old were you?
♥ 18.

Where did you go to school?
♥ up los banos. certified elbizen.

Where did you live?
♥ Unit G7, Whitehouse Apartments (with mamees Sarah, Dona, Verna, Ivy and Deidei)

Where did you hang out?
♥ devcomsoc tambayan, cpark, abode, isis cafe (wala pa sa taas ang bar non db?)

How was your hair style?
♥ straight long hair (start of my long hair days :D)

Did you wear glasses?
♥ rarely. black oval ones.

Who was your regular-person crush?
♥ kay Wookie. then dumating si Jed ulit. hehe.

How many tattoos did you have?
♥ never had one. henna pwede pa. hehe

How many piercings did you have?
♥ just two. the normal ones. mejo sarado pa nga ata nun eh. hehe

What car did you drive?
♥ haven't. always wanted to but never got the chance to learn.

What was your worst fear?
♥ that i would fall for Wookie and that he wouldn't feel the same. hindi ko matapos thesis proposal ko.

You been arrested?
♥ nah. good girl here.

Had your heart broken?
♥ hindi pa. soon after ata. haha

Had braces?
♥ nope.

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter?
♥ was single. and about to be bitter. hehe

**HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW!!

How old are you?
♥ 20.

Where do you go to school?
♥ working girl.

Where do you live?
♥ Novaliches. with mamee sarah and sometimes batch joyce and my bro, Adrian.

Where do you hang out?
♥ ELBI (whenever I can, I always go back), TriNoma, starbucks TriNoma or Greenbelt (with Soc peeps usually) and Allegro Plaza or Waltermart Makati (every Friday lunchout with officemates)

Do you wear glasses?
♥ nope. but I will soon. I think I need to.

What is your hairstyle?
♥ wavy (read: magulo) na lagpas balikat (so lame!)

Still talk to any of your old friends?
♥ of course. we always see each other every week, if not every two weeks.

Who is your current interest?
♥ si Jed. hehe

How many piercings?
♥ still two. i hope di pa sila sarado. hehe

How many tattoos?
♥ none. still. maybe i wouldn't have one.

how's driving?
♥ never learned. manngagawang Pilipino sa FX at MRT.

What is your biggest fear?
♥ not stay long with current company and career. fail my parent's expectations.

Has your heart been broken?
♥ yeah. February of 2007.

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced /Bitter:
♥ Taken. There are bumps in the road but nothing we can't handle.

harhar. The weeek that was and the week that currently is. My gawd! define hell week noong college. haher. pero, as of this moment, pasok na lahat ng artiks ko for Feb so, petiks muna ng konti. ehehe

January issue of H&L magazine is out now! do take time to visit your fave bookstores and get a copy. pag may nakit kayong six guys na naka-coat and tie against a blackish/greyish background, yun na yun! hehe. The cover is graced by six of the top icons in Philippine medical scene. :D

nyhoo, i'l be in LB tom. UPLB DevComSoc's finals for the applicants. hmm, first time to attend as an alumni. ano kaya mangyayari? peace inaanak!hehe. happy birthday to Laiah na din! lubshyah!

hmmm, I have a manliligaw nga pla. na pinapataba ako. haha. thanks kay Mrs. Fields!

Adobe InDesign learning time with Jer-jer na nga pla. Good luck sakin! hehe

This is me. Wecome to my world.

The University of the Philippines celebrates its 100th year this 2008. To kick-off the festivities and events, delegates from other UP campuses convened in UP Diliman through a motorcade and the Centennial Parade.

Madaming brods at sisses sa DevComSoc na pumunta at nagkita-kita kaya naging mas masaya ang event. Tas may nakita pa'kong ibang elbi friends. Yoohoo! At syempre, walang tatalo sa pang-finale -- isang engrande at nakamamanghang fireworks display na nagpaliwanag sa kadiliman ng kalangitan!

AMAZING!!!

Start:	Jan 30, '08 5:00p
Location:	UPLB C-Park

Yipee! One of my favorite times of the Academic Year when I was still a resident member. Hope I could be there!

arrrrgggghhhhh! I am so stressed. No, not really. I am just hurting. My neck is aching. Very painfully. Tuloy nagmumukha akong haggard. Pakshet. Masakit kasi. Sabi nila, pa-BP daw ako. Eh busy si Ate Lilet (and aming resident RA para sa isang cardio study na ginagawa nila Doc [the Chairman]) kaya nde ako makapagpa-BP. Sabi nila symptom daw to ng high blood. Sabi ko, "Haler! Wala akong high blood no! Baka low blood pwede pa!" Ayun. Masakit kasi.

Hehe. May isa pa palang masakit. Nde ko lang pinapansin pero masakit talaga. Ayokong pansinin kasi baka ma-feel ko yung pain. Pero ayos lang. may gamot naman ang lahat, db?!

Haher. Go HELL WEEK! Go DEADLINES! Go BEIJING! haher.

Sana pla makapunta ako sa UP DILIMAN mamaya for the kick-off. Mukhang madaming brods at sisses. De-stress moment.

This is me. Welcome to my world.