Tomorrow, I'll celebrate my monthsarry. Singleville isn't that bad afterall. Minus all the crying and hurting, the pain and suffering, of thinking and wondering, it really, may not be that bad afterall. t's just that you know. There are days of missing the woman that I once was, the us that we once were, and the love that we once shared. All I've got left are memories, which even though I love, has been making me sad. And though I know that it may be for the best (after knowing that he feels the same way after all), I still don't know if it's a great decision or a stupid mistake. Hai. Whichever whatever. LIfe's like that, I guess. I just wish the days will pass quickly. Deep vein thrombosis people. It kills.

This is me. Welcome to my world.

Dressing Room, Elevator, Balloon, at chicharon Bulaklak

These four 15-second plugs is part of the healthy lifestyle campaign by the Philippine Heat Association and Novartis. The plugs are aimed at increasing the awareness on hypertension, a medical condition afflicting approximately 10.5 million Filipinos (five million of which are aware that they have hypertension but from that, only one million are able to control the disease). In short, only 2 out of 10 Filipinos taking medications for hypertension are able to control the disease. Hypertension, termed "silent killer" is a condition that can't be treated but can be controlled. If you or anyone you know has a blood pressure of 140/90, please go and consult your primary care physician (or cardiologists) immediately.

If you would like to help in increasing the awareness about hypertension, please repost this video entry. As a doctor has put it, "Use and abuse this video in any way you can as long as you will make sure that it will reach more and more people."

As defined by the Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary,

Main Entry: am·biv·a·lence 
Pronunciation: \am-ˈbi-və-lən(t)s\
Function: noun
Etymology: International Scientific Vocabulary
Date: 1918
1: simultaneous and contradictory attitudes or feelings (as attraction and repulsion) toward an object, person, or action2 a: continual fluctuation (as between one thing and its opposite) b: uncertainty as to which approach to follow
— am·biv·a·lent \-lənt\ adjective
— am·biv·a·lent·ly adverb

 

Ambivalent. I am. I wish I wasn't. I shouldn't.

 

This is me. Welcome to my world.

 

As defined by Wikipedia, Philosophy is the discipline concerned with the questions of how one should live (ethics); what sorts of things exist and what are their essential natures (metaphysics); what counts as genuine knowledge (epistemology); and what are the correct principles of reasoning (logic).

But when it comes to love, there is no such thing as knowledge, logic, or ethics. The only thing that maters is happiness. Truth or lie? Ask yourself.

1.  Totoong may sariling diskarte ang puso. Pero isipin mo rin na ang utak, puso, bituka, magkakaiba man ay nasa iisang katawan. Hindi mo pwedeng sisihin ang puso o ang utak o ang bituka. Wala silang karapatang kumilos ng taliwas sa gusto mo. Pasalamat ka, dahil kung meron, malamang nauna na silang nagpatiwakal dahil sa sobrang kakornihan at kababawan ng pinoproblema mo.  Huwag mo ring hintayin na lumabas ang bituka mo at pilipitin ang leeg mo.

2. Kung niloko ka lang, hindi ka pa pwedeng ituring na tanga. Pero nung alam mo nang niloloko ka at wala kang ginawa, ginawa mong tanga ang sarili mo.

3. Kung hahayaan mo ang sarili mo na malugmok dyan at makita mo siyang nakamove-on na, tiyak iiyak ka sa sakit. Kaya unahan mo na siya.

4. kung nagpaparamdam siya at nagpapaawa effect, busan mo siya ng malamig na tubig at sabihing you’re nothing but a second rate, trying hard, copy cat. Bumenta na ang kadramahan niya. Saka mo sundutin ng I never said that I love you!

5. Bawas-bawasan mo ang panonood ng mga dramarama at mga telenovela. Masyado ka ng maemote sa buhay.

6. ‘Wag mo ng masyadong ikunukuwento sa madla ang kasawian ng pag-ibig mo. karamihan sa mga interesadong makinig e naghahanap lang ng bagong mapag-uusapan. Hindi ibig sabihin na tumatango sila e nakikisimpatya sila. Piliin  mo lang ang mga kaibigan o kamag-anak na pagkukuwentuhan mo, yung siguradong tutulong para makamove-on ka. Pero kung celebrity ka, okay lang na maging public entertainment ang buhay mo, dagdag kita ‘yan.

7. kung may natatapos, happy ending man o hindi… may magsisimula. Isulat mo sa final credit ng pelikula ng buhay mo ang pangalan niya bilang bahagi ng nakaraan. Sa ilalim ng pangalan niya ay ilagay mo ang mga katagang Rest in Peace. Ang mga relasyong tinapos na ay huwag mo ng buhayin. Magsimula ka na ulit ng panibago.  Ito ang best gift sa atin, ang makapagsimula. Palatandaan lang na tapos na at may pagkakataon ka ng isulat o likhain ang bagong kabanata ng buhay mo.

*Hango sa http://bernardumali.wordpress.com/2007/08/